What’s your “chat am I cooked?” Situation?

For me, mine is realizing that I hardly find people my age attractive cause I guess mature women are what catch my fancy as a young gay girl. Also, I realized that the only real reason I like bl so much was because there was hardly any GOOD gl on the market, but I didn’t relate to the heterosexual experience and bl have that. I’ve read like a lot of gl on this site and it’s either really good, permanent hiatus, and most of all fetishes that some guy drew, which yeah, whatever floats your boat but that’s not how my boat flows lmao-