Thoughts

ChickenButt September 7, 2024 10:11 am

There are two victims of their environment that hurt each other. Skylar has been betrayed by his closest friend, Minwoo, in the past. And he went as far as to attempting suicide, and he was also sexually assaulted and lied to by his friend. His friend had schemed a plan, having another guy kiss Skylar, with Skylar believing it was his friend. If I’m not wrong, word went around in school.

Skylar struggles with anxiety and anger issues, as well as depression based off what I remember and saw during S1. Everyone has depression here.

Cirrus, the only child, comes from an abusive family, a father that blamed him for the loss of his wife, meanwhile ignoring the cries of his own child that lost a mother. And he has a stepmother that manipulated him, and all adults around Cirrus has failed him (including his pedophile teacher). At the same time, despite his tough exterior, he’s afraid to be abandoned and failed by his loved ones again.

He sought for control by manipulating, that’s all he’s ever known. As Skylar said in the raws, “How can you love when you’ve grown up without it?”

—While I don’t fully agree, it makes sense in a way because we can see Cirrus struggling with love and finding it hard to manage his feelings, his insecurities.

I don’t believe that abused children aren’t capable of love, they are, in fact many of them grow up like an emotional sponge. No matter the emotional abuse or physical, they’ll try to hold onto who they have left.

In the raws, Skylar confronted Cirrus with his lies and gave Cirrus a chance to explain himself, and also come clear. But did Cirrus? No. Is this all Cirrus’s fault? No.

Did Skylar say hurtful words? Yes. Did he mean it? Anyone who KNOWS and READ the story, will know Skylar didn’t mean what he said. He has a habit of saying hurtful stuff, but he always regrets it.

Did Skylar react too much? NO. He reacted quite as expected, especially when you are betrayed again. I know the current Cirrus (with development) hasn’t done that in present day, but it is merely:

“Consequences will catch up to you one day.”

While Cirrus had apologized for everything and we shouldn’t hold a grudge when Skylar has accepted his apology, there are some stuff that Cirrus didn’t directly mention. So I am GLAD this happened, the truth came to light and I can rest in peace somewhat.

“You to me, the more precious you became, the less courage I had to tell you. I’m so happy with my ordinary life with you. Even though I knew it was wrong, I’m afraid you’d leave me. I’m so scared.” —Cirrus

This just proves that Cirrus is afraid of Skylar leaving him. He made a mistake in continuously hiding it, but he had a reason even if not justifiable, his own trauma being his speaker. Unlike other toxic characters, these two actually have redeeming qualities, and a chance to be better people in the near future. I love Skylar, I love Cirrus.

Forever a SKYRUS fan.

SIDE QUESTIONS:

A. I wonder what Chan-il said specifically to Skylar, about him being introduced to Ri-in. Did he word it as if Cirrus schemed to introduce them together? Or did Chan-il tell Skylar that he was the one who asked Cirrus to introduce Ri-in to him?

Remember, Chan-il was the one who asked Cirrus to be introduced to Ri-in and had asked Cirrus if he knew her. I don’t believe that Chan-il would purposefully scheme anything against Cirrus though.


B. Is Skylar more mad that Cirrus continued to lie after being confronted, or more mad that Cirrus had purposefully made Skylar see Chan and Ri-in together at the amusement park?

Responses
    kerosi September 7, 2024 6:29 pm

    YOU'RE SO RIGHT. thank you so much for saying all this because so many people are misunderstanding both of them...

    ChickenButt September 7, 2024 7:52 pm
    YOU'RE SO RIGHT. thank you so much for saying all this because so many people are misunderstanding both of them... kerosi

    Right. Nobody is the evil here.

    Kim September 7, 2024 9:43 pm

    I cried so hard at the mention of " How can you love when you've grown up without it" and cirrus replying "Do you really think that?" considering cirrus had a rather traumatic childhood where he wasn't given love after his mothers demise. All he had was candy and skylar saying that to him must hurt him bad ughh I cried ugly as I empathize. I know skylar might've said that out of spite or anger or whatever but man can't they'll just be happy PLEASEEEEE! Also I hope chan-il doesn't tell skylar in a way that cirrus was setting him up with ri-in (psps chan-il don't be a menace)as he was the one asking cirrus to introduce first, but what shouldn't be forgotten was the fact during that time cirrus did took his chances that by introducing ri-in to chan-il he'd have the hope of getting skylar's attention.. anyways I hope we get a happy ending or at least everyone healed of their trauma

    ChickenButt September 8, 2024 12:15 am
    I cried so hard at the mention of " How can you love when you've grown up without it" and cirrus replying "Do you really think that?" considering cirrus had a rather traumatic childhood where he wasn't given lo... Kim

    I feel like Chan-il did say it in a way as if Cirrus planned the whole introducing them. Cirrus has no control over them being together, just the part where he had made Skylar watch and cry over his “crush” being with his soon to be girlfriend, was def messed up.

    This is why I give the side eye when some say Skylar did NOTHING wrong. I’m sure he did something wrong, saying hurtful words, as I mentioned in my post.

    But that isn’t the same cirrus anymore. He has developed and it’s only his consequences catching up to him. I do hope for a good happy ending too! It’s heartbreaking right now, I can’t handle it too much.

    Kim September 9, 2024 10:01 pm
    I feel like Chan-il did say it in a way as if Cirrus planned the whole introducing them. Cirrus has no control over them being together, just the part where he had made Skylar watch and cry over his “crush”... ChickenButt

    Yep agreed with your sentiments. Also remember that one time where skylar forgot his camera and in their outing, chan-il said he would give it back. I wonder if he had seen something during that period and was trying to get in between the both of them ( and I really couldn't explain or pinpoint what reason that could be as there are 3 deductions that could be the case in my head lol) and with what he's said to skylar, makes me think hmm does this guy have a hidden mask behind his goody two shoes persona (remember even cirrus said he feeds off of people's misfortune as that made him feel good?) They just need to hear each other out like COMMUNICATE in a calm manner. My heart won't be able to handle if any more were to happen.. WE NEED THEM HAPPY