take things slow, at your pace. never force love, love is supposed to be natural and come, when the time is ripe. Dont pester yourself with such negative thoughts, i believe every human being is worthy of being. You as well. God made us this way, he gifts us His limitless love, but also created us the way to love another human. Dear, i hope these words reach your heart. if u want, we can chat privatly more. Take care <3
I think, if possible, you should talk to a professional about something like this. If having a relationship is really that important to you, then this is something that would be best spoken about to a licensed professional. They will be better suited to get to the root of the problem and give you multiple ways of dealing with this kind of situation. I understand that trauma can make it extremely difficult to seek help, but an important thing to remember is that if a professional is doing you more harm than good, you can always find another professional to speak to and keep trying until you find someone that works for you and your needs. It also might help to let them know ahead of time that you are generally uncomfortable with speaking with professionals or have trauma with this kind of thing.
If you are still unable to find someone in your life (professional or otherwise) to talk to, then my advice would be to evaluate what it is exactly that makes you think you are unworthy of love. Everyone is worthy of love, but for some people it just takes time. Time to build up yourself so that you are ready for a commitment like a relationship, time to know what exactly you want in a relationship and why, and time to find the person that is right for you.
Idk if this is any help to you, but I sincerely wish you the best!
worthy of being loved*
so my last fling was last year and since then I haven't gotten better. I'm traumatized to even talk to someone but I want to have someone, you know? But at the same time I'm too scared that I might not be worthy to be loved. What should I do?