Recommend me the most guy wrenching story, idc if it's bl straight or whatever please

Try these:
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/ways_of_parting/ Saddest shi ever, but beautifully written and nice vis

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/bound_to_be_fools/

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/exotic_love/ shiii first chaps but then gets crazy good

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/kimi_no_naka_ni/ Tragedy

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/to_take_an_enemys_heart/ really depressing beginnings, but gets good

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/ikusen_no_toki_o_koete/

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/into_the_rose_garden/

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/ibitsu_okada_kazuto/

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/nemurihime_yume_miru_you_ni_koi_shiteru/

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/present/ weirdly sad and humbling

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/fukouchuu_no_shiawase/ Funny, then saaad, then good again.

This got me crying like a baby

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/diamond_dust/