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Literally been wracking my brain for a reason the author doesn't want her to tell her and I just can't come up with a viable reason other than to start drama in the future
She feels bad. She once said this or something I don't remember well: "to drove my own kin into despair". She realized it later that the current saintess, Abigail, is her cousin, shich makes her feels like a sinner. To escape from the pain, she drove her cousing into the mess. Which is why she didn't want to tell Abigail the truth. She want to repay her own sin quietly.
Why doesn't she just tell her that they are cousins and that's why she wants to help? Won't it be worse if she finds out from someone else later?