Mc said that time was more like ml is kinda punishing him that was why he was roughly fucking him. Then they made eye contact, maybe ml found mc finally relented(idk how to put the emotions in words lol) and so finally made love to him properly.
Punishing him for what though? Not remembering the first encounter they had together?
No I think it was because the mc thinks he is deserved to be punished only then can his sins be washed away meaning in this context the reason why his brother dies he blames himself for not correcting himself and being all delinquent I think for that reason he believes only when he's punished for it that he can move on in some sort of way and the ML says he'll help him with moving on so?... idk this is just my take on that panel..(￣∇￣")
No omg yes you're so right! I had forgotten about that narrative since it's been so long since I've read the story. That makes so much more sense.
In chapter 80, MC says ML fucks him harshly for a while until they make eye contact and that's when ML focuses on making him feel good. Why? This has been eating at me. I can't figure out what prompted the switch in tenderness.