I have the same regret like the Uke has with the sudden passing of his father. When my father was really sick, I was also there but at the same time I was not. He was all alone in his room, while I was with my cousins and relatives outside gathering while watching some movies in the living room. We were all there gathered rarely, all because everyone knew my father's time in the world is almost up, we just knew. My uncle told me to watch over my dad in his room, but I retaliated and told them I wanted to watch the movie too. I went out and bought myself some snacks. We were all happily laughing in the living room, I completely forgot about my father being alone inside his dim lighted room, he couldn't talk noo open his eyes that time. We were so engrossed in binge watching all not and morning even came. I went out again to buy another batch of snacks, I came back home only to find my mom mourning, screaming and crying. I heard my older brother crying while saying sorry in a mournful tone. I came inside the room and found my dad with his very last breathe of air. Everyone else was already done their goodbyes, they were able to say sorry and apologized, they were able to say their thanks to my dad before he finally let out his last breathe. Me on the other hand, was too late when I realized, I did not apoligized to my father, I did not hear his last words, I did not hear his voice for the very last time, I couldn't tell him I love him so much and that he was the kindest man in the world who never git angry at me failing him as his daughter. Right kow, I am regretting it so much that I have not taken any single pictures with my father, as he started not like taking pictures when he got so ill. I still regret it til this day, because I cannot remember his voice now. I am afraid I'd also forget his face as I grow into an adult. Because again, his most recent pictures was from years ago when he was still fine.
So like I said, I cried so much with that one chapter when the Uke dreamt of his dad for the last. I wish I could do the same in mg dream to. I wanna convey my sincere apology and gratefulness to my father even if it's just a dream.
I have the same regret like the Uke has with the sudden passing of his father. When my father was really sick, I was also there but at the same time I was not. He was all alone in his room, while I was with my cousins and relatives outside gathering while watching some movies in the living room. We were all there gathered rarely, all because everyone knew my father's time in the world is almost up, we just knew. My uncle told me to watch over my dad in his room, but I retaliated and told them I wanted to watch the movie too. I went out and bought myself some snacks. We were all happily laughing in the living room, I completely forgot about my father being alone inside his dim lighted room, he couldn't talk noo open his eyes that time. We were so engrossed in binge watching all not and morning even came. I went out again to buy another batch of snacks, I came back home only to find my mom mourning, screaming and crying. I heard my older brother crying while saying sorry in a mournful tone. I came inside the room and found my dad with his very last breathe of air. Everyone else was already done their goodbyes, they were able to say sorry and apologized, they were able to say their thanks to my dad before he finally let out his last breathe. Me on the other hand, was too late when I realized, I did not apoligized to my father, I did not hear his last words, I did not hear his voice for the very last time, I couldn't tell him I love him so much and that he was the kindest man in the world who never git angry at me failing him as his daughter. Right kow, I am regretting it so much that I have not taken any single pictures with my father, as he started not like taking pictures when he got so ill. I still regret it til this day, because I cannot remember his voice now. I am afraid I'd also forget his face as I grow into an adult. Because again, his most recent pictures was from years ago when he was still fine.
So like I said, I cried so much with that one chapter when the Uke dreamt of his dad for the last. I wish I could do the same in mg dream to. I wanna convey my sincere apology and gratefulness to my father even if it's just a dream.