Question and I am very serious So I I never had a crush or something similar like I was n...

Great question! I would say, it depends (i know it's a boring answer) but I guess it's really on the person. Personally, as someone who had occasional crushes and 2 relationships but never had one whom I really WANT to marry, I've caught myself thinking like those (very rarely so I remember it when I do). But if you ask another person, they might say otherwise.
Different people express (or feel) love differently so it's a bit hard to get a definite answer, sorry!

Thanks very much for answering my question
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Girl why does your story sound completely like mine .... I doubt if I'm asexual too but I'm not sure since I have never been in relationship neither crush

It does happen. I rarely get crushes but I've had a crush like this twice and one of them ended in a relationship started by me because I confessed like a hopless romantic. I had a whole timeline planed out but we were just getting into college and ended up breaking it off because he didn't want to be long distance for too long. We're still friends but it took a lot of time and willpower to accept and just move on.

Well I am just thinking ima not label myself and writing it in stone
Just existing not looking for or really wanting anything in that direction
If something does strike me then it is what is is

but I am so sure ima die as a crazy cat lady that never experienced romantic love (the thought makes me happy actually cats are great and I really want a sphinx cat)

Wow! My exact mind set, though it took me trial and error to figure it out every time I tried to label myself as either straight or by or asexual I would feel cornered and stressed because I wasn't fitting in the stereotype definition. When I finally decided I wasn't going to label myself I felt freer and more relaxed.
It's kind of exciting to know that I'm not the only one out there with this mindset.

Hi hi! I can definitely relate to you about the lack of romance experience, so I can't offer you a definitive answer as to how romance feels. But I can do my best to briefly explain asexuality and aromanticism because it sounds like you are talking more about your (potential) little to no romantic attraction towards people. This is called aromanticism, but it often gets conflated with asexuality (which is experiencing little to no sexual attraction). This might have to do with the fact that most people experience both sexual and romantic attraction towards others, so it's difficult to pinpoint the difference between the two for most. Some may identify as asexual but not aromantic, aromantic but no asexual, OR identify as both (known as aromantic-asexual/"aroace"). It's important to point out that both definitions of aromantic and asexuality include the phrase "little to no" because asexuality is a spectrum and aromanticism is a spectrum. There is no "true way" of being either identity, so I recommend exploring the different sub-identities that fall under each spectrum (e.g. demisexual is a sub-identity under asexuality) to see if any resonate with you. And if none feel true to your experience, then by all means continue your search if you're still questioning or stay unlabeled if remaining unlabeled feels right to you.


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An aroace individual who also loves Cherry Magic (￣▽￣)