You might have developed a personality disorder. You should try getting tested, because while whatever you're doing might be working for now, it'll or might already be affecting your life negatively; not being able to form a social safety net, difficulting your work, or leading to things like severe clinical depression.
Yes mama, I understand your concern. But I don’t think it’s right for me to call it a dysfunction because in fact, it is the most functional way to help me survive. I do have a warming friend circle and they also do love me but I myself put a cover persona to completely detached myself from attachments to protect my inner self but yeah that’s how life goes on for me. I really appreciate your worry. You have a kind heart
Even though I don’t wanna be in a loop like ML, but if I were in a loop, in at least one loop, I would just kill every normal people because it will defn let some steam off since their screaming reactions will be way exciting than zombies.