Holy Shit. (LONG RANT)

hangin July 24, 2024 8:05 am

Such a beautiful story. I'm not gonna lie, i was sobbing while reading the last arc of the story, or well more specifically since the end of season 1, and all throughout season 2. It was a bit hard to read because my vision was blurry LOL

It had a slow start, but god, did everything tie nicely together in the end. I'm so fucking happy for the both of them, I loved both of their characters. From Yeonduk's love for Skyler, and how complicated it was for him to accept the fact that he loved him, even if he had hurt him time and time again– to accepting his feelings even after trying to get over him and moving back to his home town, and meeting new friends and experiencing the school life he deserved. And Skyler who went through so much fucking shit that he had never once deserved to go through, he was just a kid. He was someone who was given a terrible hand from the start of his life, with a mother that wanted him dead, and a father who didn't care for him. Seeing him regret everything he's done, going back to the start, and really reflecting on his life and... everything that had led up to who he was now is so amazing to see. He hated his mom, yet didn't want her to leave him because who else would he have? Disliked his family and his life, even if he had a "perfect" life from an outsiders point of view, and was so fucking lonely despite being surrounded by people. I loved his development, it wasn't out of nowhere, but a gradual change that was so fucking heartwarming to see. My heart goes out to the both of them.... I love the childhood friends trope so much, and reading this story reminds me why I do.

There's so many scenes that I absolutely adored in this manhwa. The best one had to be Yeonduk finding Skyler after he had ran away, accepting him into his arms even after everything, even if Skyler wouldn't admit to himself that he needed him to be beside himself. The scene where they sat together... Skyler telling Yeonduk he hated him, but clinging onto him, and Yeonduk looking at him like he knows, really know and understands what Skyler's trying to tell him even if he's saying he hates him. Where the misunderstanding is finally cleared up, and Skyler being left confused by the thought that Yeonduk was being genuine the entire time, and the fact that he had cried in front of him as they ate.. How he was always by his side no matter how many times he would push him away. Like a child seeking attention, and affection from someone he liked, Skyler continued to test him because he didn't understand why Yeonduk stayed with him after everything he had done to him. Fuck man.

Those panels where it would be just them, no dialogue, nothing in particular really happening. Just.. them, soaking in their emotions. Those really stood up to me to be honest. Anyway, to wrap this stupid long rant up. I really loved the story and how it tackled memories, regrets, love, and happiness. I've read this story a few times before, but it didn't really hit me this hard at the time...I should add this to my list soon..

Responses
    hangin July 24, 2024 8:09 am

    in a less serious note, here's my actual reaction the entire time i was reading:

    FUCK BOTH YOU?!!!! FUCK WHAT LIFE HAS DONE TO YOU, AND WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU!!!!?? I REALLY, REALLY HOPE YOU TWO WILL BE HAPPY TOGETHER EVEN IF YOU TWO AREN'T REAL. YOU BOTH DESERVE THE FUCKING WORLD!!!!

    hangin July 24, 2024 8:17 am

    Also loved the way Skyler's family was written. The children were simply a victim of circumstance. Although his mom is a fucking terrible person for what she had put him through, I kinda understood where she was coming from. She was at her lowest, miserable, and blamed it on her middle son because he couldn't handle the burden of her sadness. That doesn't mean her actions are justified though, she had raised him terribly.

    I think I sobbed a little harder reading whenever Skyler and Leo talked... The scene where Leo sleeps beside him, and they promise to keep in touch even if they live far away from eachother. So pure..

    Skyler getting the closure he needed, all this time from his older sister. Stella leaving their home to become happy, because their home was beyond saving. His mom leaving as well to become happy. And Skyler being left behind, but not forgotten because he has someone beside him who he will also become happy with.

    Fuck, I'm a certified yapper because of these comments now. Sorry. Story was so good I had to word vomit because I couldn't handle NOT talking about everything it had done. I could keep going, to be honest, but I won't.

    stanLoona_ July 31, 2024 1:03 am
    in a less serious note, here's my actual reaction the entire time i was reading: FUCK BOTH YOU?!!!! FUCK WHAT LIFE HAS DONE TO YOU, AND WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU!!!!?? I REALLY, REALLY HOPE YOU TWO WILL BE HAPPY... hangin

    so real bestie