I'm gonna be honest...

When I first read this while it was ongoing, I shipped SooDa (Soohyun x Daon) so hard. Like I genuinely believed the were soulmates and should have ended up together because I thought Soohyun loved Daon the most. But then after re-reading, I realized Soohyun's feelings for Daon wasn't really all that.

Like yes the way they met and became friends was cute, and I loved that Daon liked Soohyun to the point he gave him his virginity and slept with him multiple times even after years passed. And I know Soohyun even sacrificed his future by defending Daon after getting harrassed.

But he also never really changed his ways for Daon, yk? He was brash until the end, he never really tried to pursue Daon by telling him the truth, and he always just went with the flow.

The fact he's able to date and sleep around even while "having feelings for Daon" just solidified the fact that he's not that serious about him. I know he had every right to do so because he wasn't really dating Daon, but it kind of just shows he wasn't really in love.

Which brought me to the conclusion that it was Jaemin who was in love with Daon the most. He was just sick in the mind which is why his love was so toxic and destructive. Maybe it was just my preference for obsessive semes, but Jaemin really grew on me after re-reading.