Gosh I feel the exact same way. I’m an interior designer who’s only going with the flow and doesn’t have any goals in life ☹ It’s not that I hate it but the passion isn’t there even when I was still in school.
Right design is the type of job that requires you to squeeze your brain juices for new ideas every day too I chose wrong I can't keep up with the demands. I'm so ashamed but I'm afraid of starting over (not that I know what else I rather be doing as a career lol).
Sometimes I see my colleagues and my friends from my almamater and I'd be fascinated by how passionate they are, they participate in design competitions, in design communities, they keep changing agencies/companies to climb the ladder but here I am stuck in my second job for a few years already and don't even have the passion to do personal project for my own enjoyment, let alone doing those competitive stuffs I wish I can redo my high school life
Hugs to the both of us
For me both of your jobs are so impressive too me it's already a big thing to do for work actually! That's really impressive and cool and think I just got myself in university and frl I don't think I'm doing alot
Take your time to figure it out! Don't worry too much you'll come to find out what suits you best in the end, friend:"( you don't want to start things you eventually come to regret in doing
I'm crying cuz I kinda feel ashamed. Here I am as a grown woman just letting myself be swept away by life. I don't really love doing what I do now (motion design) but I'm decent at it. It certainly doesn't really bring me joy, and I wish I had more time to figure it out during high school before I decided to go to design school being influenced by my graphic designer brother and 3D designer sister. I don't blame them but I wish I had someone telling me to figure what I want to do with my life without being rushed, without feeling like I have make life changing decision right there and then or else I'll be left behind by my peers. I'm glad rintaro has that kind of support system, even a role model to look upon to.