What do you call this?

I'm literally the same TT is it even normal atp?? I mean I like the idea of dating, I even like the talking stage/ pre dating stage but when things start progressing, I shut myself off. I'd love to have someone that loves me but at the same time I don't wanna actually commit.
Something happened recently, it was like an accidental talking stage? Lolol idk because we started off as normal with NO other intention but yeah it kinda progressed in different way. When things kinda started to become a little serious, I just distanced myself and after a few days now I'm completely over it whenever I start feeling something for someone, I detach myself from it and most of the times, there isn't any even any valid reason for that

The pattern of enjoying romantic concepts but not the actual romantic interactions is a key characteristic of cupioromanticism. You can imagine yourself in love and in a relationship with someone, longing for it even, but when it comes to actual practice, you get uncomfortable and don’t have actual feelings for the person involved at all.

However, it’s also important to consider other possible explanations, such as fear of intimacy, past negative experiences or even trauma.

To describe it better, cupioromanticism is a romantic orientation where someone desires a romantic relationship and enjoys the idea of romance but does not experience romantic attraction.

I’m not sure if I’m right, just speculating here, feel free to do some research around aromaticism and cupioromanticism, or contact a psychological specialist ╮(￣▽￣)╭

Ohhh I see thank you !!

You're so real for that ☹