True, plus we know that espera without guiding also get a lot of mental issues as side-effects. It’s not his fault he fell in love as a kid, lots of kids have thoughts like ‘this is mine!’ Or ‘you’re my friend not theirs!’ He unfortunately just had the power to actually make that happen.
I don’t think he killed his mom on purpose either, it was just an awakening, although I think we’re pretty lucky that he didn’t kill Howoo in the process, which in willing to be is more because he wanted him to be ‘his’ and accidentally imprinted on him versus any actual control. Then he grows up in a facility, with more shit adults threatening to kill him and use him as a weapon, with shit guiding because he’s powerful and he also already chose someone who was never afraid of him, so his mental health is probably below rock bottom.
The proof that’s he’s definitely not a horrid human being is the fact that he 1. Respects Howoo’s boundaries, 2. Is genuinely more afraid Howoo won’t love him versus Howoo leaving him, and 3. Thinks that he killed Howoo’s mom and that’s the reason Howoo would never forgive him even though it was an accident, so theres probably some semblance of guilt there too.
People, even in relationships, aren’t obligated to tell the other person everything. Trust is built, even if love comes first, and fear is a huge wall that’s hard to overcome especially if you’ve never been able to trust any one and think of yourself as a monster too. If you don’t love yourself, how can you expect (or trust) anyone else to? The fact that he isn’t narcissistic and actually knows how to feel fear…I just have this feeling that he actually hates himself but can’t bear to lose Howoo.
The comments are screeching left and right about gaslighting, but honestly it feels more like reluctance to tell everything all at once out of a place of fear, distrust of people in general, and self-loathing…which is an incredibly, astoundingly, ABSURDLY normal human thing to do. All I’m saying is that for someone who has never experienced or seen a healthy, loving relationship in their whole life, Yool’s doing a pretty damn good job overall with Howoo, even if there’s a lot they haven’t addressed. I don’t get the feeling like their relationship is fake or based off of obsession and control only like a lot of other stories with similar ML. It just feels like two traumatized people, one who remembers and one who doesn’t, who are falling in love and attempting to work through their problems and trauma in a society that treats them as subhuman.
I wanted to upvote but i accidentally downvoted. Agreed. That's the reason i didn't drop the webtoon. He was a child who was left to die with zero guidance over self control for his powers. It wasn't intentional. If he was an adult, it'd be a completely different matter. He'd be irredeemable.
Guys, concerning Howoo’s mom…
I understand where you’re coming from but Yool was what, nine?
First of all, I do believe it was unintentional on his part, he went berserk.
Secondly, I don’t know if you remember but prior to that he overheard his PARENTS plotting his MURDER, and Howoo’s parents were to “look after” him while he’s dying without guiding. He probably thought they were in on the scheme and was frightened shitless and mad af. And even if he didn’t, he might have started seeing all the adults, especially parents, as threats to himself and maybe even potentially Howoo.
I do think that his obsession with Howoo played a part in the tragedy but blaming everything on a little kid, who was going crazy without guiding aka treatment and felt like every adult around him was actively working towards or even just idly waiting for his death, seems a bit too much to me.
Plus he might have been triggered by any child/parent display of affection with his background, it’s not even necessary about Howoo.
You can’t hold someone as abused as him to the same standards as other kids ┑(￣Д ￣)┍