i think it’s fine and it makes sense for the MC to be like this. She’s lived a whole lifetime stressed and anxious trying not to make any mistakes and stifling her own feelings for the sake of the novel, where she was clearly being treated like shit for most of it as well. This isn’t really something you can immediately move past and grow from. She’s had no real stability for years and has been living in survival mode that entire time. But from ch. 43 we can see maybe she’s finally starting to change now that she has a safe place with Xion.
i think it’s fine and it makes sense for the MC to be like this. She’s lived a whole lifetime stressed and anxious trying not to make any mistakes and stifling her own feelings for the sake of the novel, where she was clearly being treated like shit for most of it as well. This isn’t really something you can immediately move past and grow from.
She’s had no real stability for years and has been living in survival mode that entire time. But from ch. 43 we can see maybe she’s finally starting to change now that she has a safe place with Xion.