Still a masterpiece

Reread this after a while and I can just say that the emotions remain to be raw as ever.

A part of me knew that Jungwon being left behind in a miserable state was the right course of action, but another part of me hoped he could've had a chance.

There's a difference between sincerity and integrity, Jungwon has always been sincere with how he wanted Yoowol. He wanted him, loved him, looked out for him in a way so twisted and violent. But what can we say about it, Jungwon learned that affection was so closely tied to fear and power. Without fear and power, it was difficult to weigh what love was.

I think one of the pivotal scenes that had me secretly root for Jungwon was when Yoowol went missing and his first response was to check the rooftop. He knew Yoowol inside out, or at least rhe Yoowol prior Yoongyeol's influences. I found myself pitying Jungwon so much, he wanted to do everything he could to be different from his father, but he was never at an advantage. He grew up to survive in a cruel world. He was taken in by gangsters, he killed to be in the position he was in now. He never lived a privileged life. It was all dirty conditions.

If only Jungwon had a chance to live a life without those gangsters, maybe he and Yoowol could've crossed paths on a better note. I find Jungwon's chemistry with Yoowol good. It reminded me a lot of Daon and Soohyun from Secret Relationships. Their relationship was raw and intense just like Jungwon and Yoowol.

But, in the end, this was what's meant to be. Jungwon knew they'd never be happy. It was all about being miserable together. He believed in himself he killed Yoowol. The Yoowol who was so miserable he was begging for death. Now, that miserable Yoowol is gone. The Yoowol that lives to this day was different, and Jungwon knew that he had no place in that Yoowol's life. All that was left of him was to live out whatever is left of his life and one day he'd meet the Yoowol he killed.

This author did Jungwon's character so well and give a fitting ending, this is one of the best love triangles I've ever seen and everyone's endings were served just right. I know this is a closed series but in my head there's an AU for a happy post-canon Jungwon.