i'm still trying to find this one, tbh i haven't read it for real, i don't think this one is what you're looking for, but the feeling when i thought "is this it?" never been this hard..
anyway, i'm gonna put some title and hopefully, one day we'l find it guys..
this one is similar in some points, again, big chance not the one we're looking for
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/ore_to_kareshi_no_koi_no_hate/
i'm commenting because i want an update ⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄
Still trying to look for this, I tried asking ppl on tiktok no response yet
If I got my replies it would be very easy for me.
Please kind humans help me find this manga,
Details - The uke and seme share a bickering kinda friendship. One day when they were alone uke (directly, indirectly) confessed that he likes men. Seme is shocked but he also understands him. Noone other than seme knows in their class. They studies in same class
Later in the manga seme had to move to a different city, town but he promises uke that he'll return and wait for him. Seme after moving to a different city had a second thought and got scared of society. He then marries a woman to live a "normal" life. He never contacted uke (who remains unknown that seme is married now) but deep down seme regrets it everyday.
Unknown to the fact, uke never goes into another relationship. He continues waiting for seme but years have passed so he decided to go to the city, town seme is in and searches for him. Somehow he stumbled with semes wife who learns uke is friends with seme. So she invites him over to dinner without telling seme. Seme after work arrives home. while his wife is preparing their dinner doorbell rang. Seme went to open the door and is shocked to see uke at the doorstep. His wife tells she invited him for dinner. Seme excuses himself saying he wants to catch up and buy some ingredients to his wife he leaves with uke and outside he reminded of the past. He apologize profusely to uke. He tells him he got scared. Uke who is heartbroken puts on a smile