Is there an english translation? And how far ahead is the novel (in terms of chapters)? I doubt there’s any way I can read it for free so I guess I’ll just have to wait ╥﹏╥
So far I know, no. I read MTL on wattpadd but it wasn't completed. But that was around pandemic time. So maybe if you google it, it available now.
Ok I’ll try, thanks
here ya go pookie
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1DmlAKoPAL1b-CpBFUM381owyzy-uzdMC
In the novels, right before leaving. Did Tae Eui handcutt Ilay and have sex with him? Because if yes then the rape is romantized already
No they did not have sex
Wow so they added that part in the manga out of nowhere? Wow wtf... So the story is intentionally modified to romantize the rape...
...so
I just want to say THANK YOU I literally binged all 90 chapters just for it to end I've been reading this for hours straight back to back out of all of this information Im surprised to find out ilay basically wanted a child, although I was wondering why this story was weird asf they were trying to romanticize rape I was so confused why taeui wasn't like MAD or just generally fearful of this dude it felt like some parts of the story were there and then all of a sudden there was a part of it that was changed yk. In this story I was kind of hoping for a huge development after bc it felt like ilay did actually realize why he felt the way he did for taeui, especially after he left there was a difference between how he acted but he never spoke about his feelings or his actions so I guess why in the spin off they were still far from a lovely couple
Just check to make sure my memory is correct, and it is. Taeui wanted Ilay to experience the feeling of being forced to do something because Taeui wanted Ilay to understand why he was feeling that way, but they never had sex. He only jerks off with Ilay because he thinks that it is a good substitute for coercive rape.
well? did they ever find the fucking brother lmao or is that plot buried for the romance
Yup from niw on it will be about his brother, brother and brother, they will meet as well just some patience
The brother arc is very looonggg. Jae Eui loves Tae Eui, but he is indescribable. Hmmmm. Let say, he was kidnapped, and asked to make weapon. But because he is precious and very smart, of course the kidnapping is kinda vacation (not like Tae Eui kidnapping). The person who kidnapped Jae Eui also fell in love with him (but it's very very far away in few years later where Jae Eui consider dating him). Tae Eui will get kidnapped, as in to threaten Jae Eui. But as it told in webtoon. Jae Eui has tremendous luck. If he wish to leave this kidnapping, he can. I mean. Something will definitely happened and he can leave. But Jae Eui just didn't wanna leave. After Tae Eui was kidnapped as well. Finally Jae Eui wanted to leave, and yes as his luck works, ilay and xinliu come to the rescue. Even after this, Jae Eui was taken by Xinliu, and guess what. Jae Eui just left. Again. He later rejoin UNHRO. I mean, it's weird his luck is just so great that no one even can harm him. In 2nd spin off Jae Eui already left UNHRO and finally become a couple with his kidnapper in main story. The kidnapper is not like ilay (brutal, obsessive) but he treat him kindly. No separate side story for them. It just Jae Eui visited Tae Eui in German and told him he will accept that guy feeling and asked how to have gay sex. Tae Eui told him, it's hard being receiving end (bottom). Tae and Jae still in contact with each other. And if Jae Eui was sick it meant he just had sex with his new bf and it's hard on his body. For me, Jae Eui is not interesting character. He was the reason people keep bothering Tae Eui. Jae Eui also not very expressive. It's hard to see whether he loves his brother or not. While Tae Eui is very expressive. But as in, when Tae Eui also get kidnapped because of him, and he finally wanted to leave, I kinda want to think, it's because he didn't want Tae Eui also imprisoned because of him.
Still weird, why would you get excited while jerking off a guy that terrorize you... But still better than what we did get in the manwha.
The novel seems better as the MC actually fears Ilay as in the manwha, he says he does while his actions shows he doesnt.
I honestly dont mind that they end up together, in fact i am in for it xD! But it's really annoying when the character feelings are all over the place. Either you love him or you dont. The whole "i hate him so i'll run away" while showing he clearly loces Ilay is the worst in the story.
It could also have gone "i love him but he treat me like thrash so in running away". Atlesst the character isnt oblivious to his own feelings
this sounds crazy in a whole new level... I mean, there's basic no development about anything whatsoever. I still had hopes :(
i guess being kidnapped runs in the family lmao. thanks for the plot summary
I'm not trying to defend the fault in adaptation, I just thought that you might have misunderstood Taeui's intention, and I don't remember them having sex, so I just corrected you, and that's totally understandable because I can relate lol. There's even a time when I have to stop reading this because I'm so disappointed in the adaptation and try to find a physical copy of it just to realise that the author never releases an English version of it.
That's what some readers like about it, it is unique and an embodiment of "a psychopath may learn how to love, but it won't change its nature," and because it was clarified by the author that he was born like that and not nurtured, and he is a special case in the Reigrow family because all of them are kind-hearted. and how Taeui manages to tame a monster.
Yeah and i totally agree with you,the adaptation changed the story to romantize the rape (even more than the original story).
Yea, the "psychopath/cold blooder seme that becomes sweet for the uke" is quite a popular trope.
ikr, I was so devastated when Ilay first raped Taeui. I was debating whether to continue or not, and gladly someone from Bato explained and persuaded me to continue.
So. The first time I read this webtoon was only like 30 chapters or something and I like it so much, I bought the novel from ridibook (it will auto translated to english, you can use any credit card to buy). I even read the spin off novels.
As it started off slow burn, and ilay & Tae Eui started off as jerking off buddies. I wasn't expecting ilay to rape Tae Eui (seriously). The novel is much more details.
Tae Eui is afraid of ilay, a lot. He always remember the video where ilay can kill people with bare hands. Their jerking off buddies also started like that. Tae Eui just scared ilay might snapped his neck. That's why Tae doesn't care if ilay came to him in his sleep, and used his tight for jerking off, he was just tired, and ilay is strong. But after few times, at least he knows ilay won't harm him and he likes their jerking off activities (as long as it feels good). Moreover when he realized, Xinliu also has ulterior motive (want to find Jae Eui through him), he also saw him slept with ilay. So Tae Eui gave up relationship with Xinliu.
Ilay is the perfect picture of what toxic seme. After ilay raped Tae Eui the first time. Tae Eui was so depressed, he yelled at ilay why he raped him. He felt so betrayed. He was bleeding from his anus (yes the novel doesn't romanticize the rape at all), his body was sore, some of Tae Eui skin is peeled off because ilay bind his hands during assault, and his headache is getting worse. It also described how hard Tae Eui had to walk to the doctor and asked medicine. Finally his body got better, but he still felt resentful towards ilay. Moreover ilay often make sexual jokes and tried to forced himself again on Tae Eui. He still kiss Tae Eui or left hickeys. After the mission that was given by his uncle Tae Eui stress reach it's peak. The rumors was spreading in UNHRO that Tae Eui slept around with ilay, made Tae Eui depressed. Finally Xinliu confronted Tae Eui if the rumors was true, Tae felt unfair. Xinliu tried raped/forced open Tae Eui clothes. Tae Eui ran away and found the hidden floor, met his uncle and asked him to assist him to run away. I don't think Tae Eui sadness and depression during this time was written well in webtoon.
During his ran away, Tae Eui believe he will be killed that's why he shouldn't get caught. He was trying to find his twin.
Now spoiler.
After this, ilay will bring Tae Eui to Hongkong and have people tail on him. While ilay works in UNHRO, Tae Eui is free to roam, Tae Eui tried to run away again few times but fail. He has people who kept watching him. Ilay will visit Tae Eui every weekend. One day Tae Eui told ilay, that ilay's watcher tried to brawl him. Ilay confuse as the watcher didn't suppose to hurt him. Turned out it's Xinliu people who tried to kidnap Tae Eui.
Tae Eui found traced where Jae Eui is located. He asked ilay to please let him meet his brother and then he will be by ilay side. There's a lot of arc about finding his brother. But here, Xinliu also gone wacko. Kept trying to kidnap Tae Eui or kill him. If Tae Eui die, he will kept his body. Ilay replied, if Tae Eui died, Xinliu will never get the body, because he will eat Tae Eui to his bone so they will become one.
On the ending (after whole finding Jae Eui fiasco). Xinliu told Tae Eui, if he doesn't follow him, he will kill Tae Eui brother. So Tae Eui follow Xinliu inside the car. Ilay who saw that, thought Tae Eui is running away from him again. In the end xinliu let Tae Eui go, but when Tae Eui about to go back to ilay, ilay find him first and still angry because his own misunderstanding. Again. Rape.
The ending is Tae Eui will live together with ilay in german at ilay home where kyle also reside.
I think main story is lack of romance which I think disappointing. I mean, ilay only once apologize to Tae Eui. But the romance is written in spin off novel.
Spin off. Fast forward to few years. They have been together for years. If people ask Tae Eui, does he has boyfriend, he will reply, he has German boyfriend. But if people ask him in front of ilay, he will reply, ilay is his close friend. Kyle called Tae Eui as ilay's professional. Since Tae Eui here, ilay act as humanly. Tae Eui learned speaking germany, and ilay learned korean. Even if ilay good looking, his personality is shit. So Tae Eui is much more popular.
Tae Eui still think that someday he will be killed by ilay and he still afraid of him. Even after years. Tae Eui told this to his friends, but ilay overheard. Ilay loves Tae Eui but as psychopath he is, he just can't say I love you. He only force Tae Eui to say "yes I m yours". Tae Eui doesn't wanna say such sentence because he is not property. Fyi, just because Tae Eui afraid of ilay, it doesn't mean he lived in fear. Tae Eui still does whatever he wants and say whatever he wants. They mainly communicate in germany.
Actually ilay doesn't wanna hurt Tae Eui. He also against Tae Eui does anything dangerous but sometimes Tae Eui still do. Finally ilay told Tae Eui, he can't never live without him. If Tae Eui die first, he will hired people to kill himself. But if ilay die first, Tae Eui should live on. Every time Tae Eui chatter mindlessly like "how does it feel to fly on private jet" "Wow this resort is good". Ilay will secretly bought all of it for Tae Eui. Yes, Tae Eui assets are accumulated but he himself doesn't realize this. Ilay one day thought of crazy idea, if he can ever make Tae Eui pregnant, so he made love with Tae Eui everyday for a month. And of course Tae Eui not pregnant. If they were separated because ilay was on mission, they will have video call sex. He told his friend he can't get it up if it's not Tae Eui and he doesn't like anyone else. There's a time in korea where Tae Eui met his ex boyfriend and another guy who also has a crush on him. Unfortunately ilay also there. Because ilay was jealous, he made Tae Eui have sex with him while come up with confession for him like "I love ilay, my love is high as the sky and as deep as the sea". Things like that. But ilay also want Tae Eui tell him i love you normally, so he tasked his frieds (mercenaries friends) to make Tae Eui confess his love. Aside from Tae Eui ex boyfriend, a boy who has crush on him, there are other people who likes Tae Eui. Like Tae Eui military friend who hurt Tae Eui knee. And one of ilay friend also like Tae Eui. Tae Eui is so carefree he never ask ilay anything romantic or stuff. But ilay want to have vacation, ilay bait Tae Eui by telling him "there's beer festival in here this time, wanna go? " Tae Eui said yeah I want to. But then, when ilay friend who also like Tae Eui asked him, let's go vacation. Tae Eui also said yes. The time is the same as beer vacation that ilay planned. Ilay felt annoyed but he follow Tae Eui to his new vacation plan.
In novel it took a long time for them to change. Even after dating for years, Tae Eui was still afraid of ilay (until ilay told him, he will never hurt him/kill him). Ilay also not magically stop being psychopath. The rape in main novel doesn't romanticized. And there's character development. In spin off their relationship is normal. But ilay is pervert. Unlike in main novel where ilay doesn't like it if people looking at Tae Eui, while in relationship, even if he was jealous, ilay didn't blindly hurt/kill people.