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Sexual abuse is something that's hard to get away from. It's hard to get over, no matter how long has passed.
It robs people of their bodies, their minds, their souls. It robs their trust, it hurts their relationships, it could ruin you as a person to the point where you don't even feel like a person anymore.
This manga artist has shown us two ways sexual abuse can take a person. Down a road of hypersexuality like Yashiro, or down a road like Doumeki's sister. And we also got a perspective from Doumeki, someone who feels like it's their fault for finding out about someone close to him being sexually abused by his own father. To be so scared of turning out like him that he becomes impotent.
I just want to say that I appreciate this manga artist. For showing a side of sexual abuse that isn't touched upon much. I looked at the raws for chapter 25 and it left me sobbing. I just can't stop thinking back to Yashiro as a child. And how long it took for him to finally possibly be saved from a past that's haunted him his whole life. I'm scared on what will happen next. He deserves happiness.
Sex isn't something to be afraid of. It isn't something to be ashamed of. It shouldn't be something that's used against you. So when someone robs you of your innocence, it's hard to come back from. But you can make it through. No matter how long it takes, there's still hope of overcoming such a dark thing.
I can't... I can't...
Reading chapter 24 was like a huge wave of release washed over. I looked at 10 pages of chapter 24 of the raws months ago, but it DOES NOT beat the feelings I just had while being able to read it. To see Doumeki gently pushing Yashiro, but not to the point of making him feel traumatized, makes me want to cry. To treat him so gently, to treat him the way he deserved, and seeing how terrified Yashiro is of it breaks me. I love how the manga artist drew the story, so that Yashiro comes first before Doumeki's lust. He truly does love him. It was honestly such a turn on, not just because the scenes were sexual, but because of the strong emotion, the strong need, and how you know Yashiro needs this to happen for him. And for Yashiro to be honest, to gently touch Doumeki and take back he said earlier to upset him, to tell him he was pure. Both of them deserve love and to be treated gently and be comforted.
So many emotions. I've been waiting so long for this.
Ch. 24, pg 21. I literally began to sob when Doumeki kissed Yashiro so sweetly.
I'm so scared of what's to happen. I don't want Doumeki to lose Yashiro. And I don't want Yashiro to run away or get hurt. But there's also this deep, dark brooding feeling coming over me. It's still so dangerous for Yashiro right now. They've both been through so much, I just want them to be together.