https://mangatoto.com/title/147907-kawaii-kimi-bijin-na-osananajimi-to-heibon-na-boku/2743096-ch_5
Here's link to the raws. And base on the rough translation of bixby, I don't like how the story progressed. I can't say much but from what I could gather only the uke was having a hard time and the seme was just living life. Bruh, idek. It was like the seme wasn't at all remorseful or sorry. Don't quote me though (I am thankful for bixby's translation but that was a hard read) (Now, I'm really in awe of those who translate well, they have my respect, love, and adoratio. I will cook for you guys lel)
Continuing, up until the very last I mean, like the confession, that wasn't even, it was rough bro. And they just straight up foreplay bruh. How can I even explain that? Idk the story loves the seme too much. Just glazed through everything ya know.
I wasn't settled at all. There was no anything. And that may be just because of the translation? Maybe when a good translation comes, maybe it wasn't what I thought it was?
Oh mannn I can feel that this is good but I just don't understand the translation sometimes. Anyway, I want the seme to suffer and chase after the uke. Cause boy even if I don't understand what the heck they're talking about I can feel that was rough for the uke. Like that was so embarrassing. BRUH. To even think like that. That you're not really cute. That you're really not deserving of anything cause of it. The ACCEPTANCE. that hurt. My baby got his confidence taken away.
But yeah, life's tough. Criticism will come in many shapes and form the more he grows up. Welcome to the real world I guess. You just gotta build that strong mentality and what experience more suited for this growth by knowing you're not really all that noh?
Now maybe he won't rely on his cuteness for his value.
Am just gonna blab from here on out I mean am really just blabbing at this point...
But
I remember this from somewhere, 'if you put your value on things, what happens if that thing is taken away?' Does your worthiness really rely on something not constant?
There's nothing wrong with being average anyway haha. You are average in some areas, the worst in some. And great in others. We are not perfect. That's what I had to remember... that even if I suck, I don't totally suck. That I had my redeeming qualities.
I suddenly remember that coronation speech in that anime (No Game No Life) that went something like The strength of the weak. We've come this far even though we're pathetic. We've battled forces that deemed us inferior and yet at one point we had come out on top. So fight like the weak and do your most. Complacency will be the undoing of the strong.
That speech seriously took me. And I may be straying from the point here but yeah. Be weak and thrive. Be average yet happy. We may not be able to reach for the stars but we forget that even the cup of water we are holding already reflects the sky.