What do you mean? :v MC started to write after suffering a traumatic accident where he now believes that left him with a “curse” that kills everyone that he writes about. He gives up on writing for three years but then finds seme who knew who he was and was a fan of his (plus also being the only survivor of that same accident) they start to have a love relationship but seme starts to go insane due to the “curse”, uke can’t write “their” story like seme wants or write about the seme as main character otherwise he’ll die so Uke notices that and distances himself with no explanation and the desire to write about HIMSELF instead so he’s the one dying not the seme. However as this last updated chapter shows he can’t be away from seme or the life they built together since that’s where his true happiness lies on. It’s a mature story (I’m 25) and if you’re on your early teens and been reading webtoons about man getting pregnant and being portrayed as a woman with a dick pretty much then yeah maybe it might be too dense for you
I get the "Curse" but why does the ML want the MC to write about them? Why does the ML seem so creepy and appear as a Soul Reaper to the MC. Their relationship seems strained but I still can't understand why. The MC distances himself from the ML but why? He signs off on an aggreement to write a story with himself as a protagonist knowing well enough that he might die, but why really? Why couldn't the ML never photograph him, why does MC force himself to photograph him looking all melancholic, does the ML have a curse too? It ain't mentioned anywhere. What are the weird conversations of dying together, it makes no sense to me. What's with the choking kink? Did the ML really choke him as a child, if so then why?
Congratulations on being 25, I'm not in anywhere in my "early teens" so you don't have to worry about it btw.
About wanting to write the story it’s either cause seme is a fan and ukes movies gave him a purpose so of course he would like their own, or it’s the “curse” already manifesting on the seme and forcing the uke to write. The “creepy” parts including seme I (personally)think that only the uke can see them I do not believe seme is cursed neither sees himself in that “monstrous” moments. It’s only a few chapters but we can see from ukes memories in the brothel that they spent at least a few months together, MC is being lit haunted and they are both kind damaged due to their trauma and war so it would make some sense for their relationship to look a bit messy and strained and the chapters being in wrong order also did not helped on the build up. The Uke distances himself cause he knows seme wants him to say I love you and write about them etc but if he does that if seme indeed becomes his muse then he’ll probably die like the others. About signing the agreement and dying it’s because HE IS suicidal, he feels like a murderer, he’s being chased down by a grim reaper, he had to treat the guy he loved like shit to protect him and more than that he can’t life without writing and that’s the only thing he’s good at, he might as well die if his own existence it’s so deprived of any happiness and shadowed by trauma. About the photos it’s not a curse making it blurry, I think it’s to reaffirm the idea that the uke it’s always in his own world and unreachable for seme, who’s “more in love” than mc overall, when MC comes to terms that he truly loved the seme he can finally “face” him in the portrait. The weird convos I think it’s authors poetic touch like when ukes goes on yapping some metaphorical stuff or seme saying he wanted to eat the apples with him and fucking straight away it is indeed a bit odd but not odd enough. The chocking I think it was also due to either the curse or the seme getting more and more possessive and frustrated with his love not being reciprocated or the idea of their own story never happening
bruh I'm not even gonna bother reading it all
just because it's a little confusing doesn't mean people are dumb for not getting it :) the story have some confusing parts and it's not even finished yet so not even you can know for sure what is happening. And Stop making it sound like 25 is a big deal lmao it's not
Either I'm a blunt as a hammer or I've fried off all my brain cells reading silly ABO yaois because for the love of God I can't understand ANYTHING.