Yeah, it happens when you lose a child. It never heals. I have lost 3. 1 in the first trimester, 1 in the second, and 1 at 3 days old. You never heal. I see myself looking at kids that would be around their ages, and I wonder what they would look like. Act like. My eldest would be 21 and 4 mo rn. My 2nd loss was the hardest she would be 21 tomorrow. I thankfully have her identical twin sister to look at and see what a wonderful woman she would have become. My 3rd would have turned 16 in April. As grateful as I am to have the 3 living children I have now, you never heal from the loss.
As much as I hated the cliche beginnings, the scene with the puppy and the realistic portrayal of a mother's grief redeemed it. My son once told me that his grandma told him to come down the rainbow. That it was time. I always wonder if he was my first son, come back to me. He had just not been ready.
Lots of ppl saying this is high toxic and I am here like, this is standard toxic yaoi, what are you talking about.
Anyways, I really liked the super serious vibe of this work. Few smiles, dark atmosphere, heavy drama that is not anything like that gay melodramatic drama we're so used to see.
Did you notice that, not even once, the characters say "i love you" to each other? That's telling, it settles the tone for the whole manwha and I enjoyed it fully.
Seme hurts uke, deeply, almost beyond repair, and uke learns to deal with what happened to him and how to heal over it, more or less.
The extras left me with a bittersweet taste, because even though the couple looks happy, there's this underlying sadness with the uke, the quiet manner he conducts himself, that tiny dreamy touch on his eyes whenever he drifts apart in thought.
That's the kind of deep drama i crave. The one that never heals completely.