
Around chapters 47/48, the ML realizes that he pretty much fell in love with the MC at first sight and that all he's ever wanted was the main character's love. But, he also realizes that because he used coercion and rape, he has ruined their relationship beyond repair. He's filled with immense regret and self-hatred that I haven't seen from any other ML in BL. He's literally in despair over how badly he's messed up. He then messes up again horrifically and has a full-on breakdown. It's messy, but the groveling from 47 to now is top-tier. Usually, groveling is maybe 4-6 chapters. This has been a long, painful period of groveling for the ML. If you like that stuff, it is chef's kiss.

so if you fully want to avoid all rape scenes without skipping bits, you could start from the middle of chapter 57
it's a moment when difficult stuff is happening* but it seems useful to read
* spoiler below
* the biological mom/omega dad of Euiyoung (the little brother) shows up and asks Euihyun (MC) to let him take his son to his house, therefore separating the two half-brothers
dropped this awhile ago bc of the rape. at what chapter does it get good?