I think it's more like he mistook the concept of wanting to have a parent figure to a crush
It just hit me. Cirrus is mentioning this story because he wanted to know if Skylar would really stand by him even if his past is shitty. Cirrus believes this situation leaves a stain on his character and might be a reason for Skylar to look at him differently...The way he internalised this whole situation! It truly depicts how victims of SA feel.
Excellent writing!!
Ahh I see what you mean... the English literature babe in me went overload and may have over-analysed
I feel like that's something he hasn't fully realised himself. He understands the idea but hasn't made it his own reality. by saying he had a crush, then later saying he wished his teacher could've been his dad, he knows the difference but somehow still frames himself as a participant in the fuckery. crush = sexy vibes when, in reality, it was completely parental, and he was taken advantage of. ramble over <3
Well said
You didn’t have a crush on your teacher love. You were groomed