
My ex did exactly that in 2017. It was a toxic and destructive relationship. I can't even remember the good times. It was so, so bad. And I was so so in deep that.. Even if my life has continued, while I'm getting near the age he had when he died, I understand more and more every day that his death was his ultimate punishment for me, he even send me a text message with (I later found they were) his final words. That message still haunts me till this day.
Mafuyu will never be able to forget Yuuki.

What makes me pissed off is that uenoyama just had to be stuck with them. Like this is supposed to be his first relationship but he just had to be yuki's shadow. He had to handle everyone's issue and that's gotta be exhausting. He's living as someone who stole someone's (yuki) spot. It's like yuki never left in their life until the end.
"Suicide should not be glorified"-Neon Gravestones by Twenty One Pilots.
Guys I think now I understand why I hate Yuki. When listening to Neon Gravestones, It reminds me of Yuki's character. He made suicide as form of punishment, form of aggression, a form of moment to remember , and as a proof to people he left behind.