Well according to novel she is being control by the queen with some kind of magic and her thinking about killing herself is a defence mechanism her mind is focusing on, but to get her out of that control Ishakan's spe^m plays important role like ahem ahem how many times she gets that(￣∇￣") she will eventually start thinking freely, hence the killing desire and eating desire.
Well according to novel she is being control by the queen with some kind of magic and her thinking about killing herself is a defence mechanism her mind is focusing on, but to get her out of that control Ishakan's spe^m plays important role like ahem ahem how many times she gets that(￣∇￣") she will eventually start thinking freely, hence the killing desire and eating desire.