i love this author but i agree this one wasn't it...
There's something enthralling about a sick and twisted story sometimes
I'm one of those who actually like this work, and tho I don't necessarily find it beautiful, I'll tell you why I'm drawn to it- it's because it's messed up, and not just messed up for the sake of being edgy, but it's authentically messed up- it's practically novelty for me because the character's drives and actions are not something that is relatable or common, I like the creativity of how it meshed together and how the author really pushed it to extremities while still retaining the plot.
If I'm relating it to real life interests, I'd say it's similar to liking serial killer documentaries- I do not wish even on my worst enemy to suffer the same way those victims went through nor will I ever find the interest to do such crimes, but I'm so invested in the drives of the killers, their MOs, what pushed them to do it, and so on so I consume those type of works over and over; only difference is that this one's fiction so there's more leeway to rationalizing and interpreting the characters' actions.
Um sorry but I really don't get how people read and enjoy stories like this....he was in love with him but was pimping him out to old men and watching them fuck him and fuck him raw? I just...I just don't know. I literally feel like puking rn and icb these comments saying this story was "beautiful"......