every time an update comes out i feel my insides twisting and i become so miserable 😭�...

every time an update comes out i feel my insides twisting and i become so miserable honestly nothing has ever affected me so much and i'm really hardcore.. i want to abandon this but at the same time i'm hopeful that the mc will become free and have justice even though i saw the spoilers i don't know what to do i wish they would change the story from the novel but i know it won't happen ☹