To be honest i felt the same too even worst than you ,.... until i found my first love ,then i started living and doing everything for him...i am living to make him happy and when he smiles ,all my depression and unwillingness to live is gone...i don't know if this can help
What are the root cause of your problem, the one you mentioned in last . Then talk to a therapist about it. If therapy is not working then you need to change your therapist as you state it's been 4 year you are in therapy .
Find something to do that you love.
if you dont see any objective reason to be unhappy and still you cant help but feel depressed then most probably it s because of the chemical process in your body/brain. Then the known way is to take a course of medication that ll help your body to function normally, then you ll be able to think positively. i had the same problem and at first i didnt believe that my depression is caused by my physical condition, i couldnt believe meds could help. But they really do help
Hey man i dont have any advice that may help you but i hope you do well
I've already changed my therapist five times, but thank you for your concern!
dw but ty for ur concern!
Ty 4 the concern! I think some medication I consume may have a related effect, like the one u mentioned, but I will discuss it in my next session with the doctor.
ty for the concern! but currently Im not looking 4 someone since i think i will drag them w my mental problems
Who knows maybe they will drag you out instead
ask them about phenibut. that s the one that helped me. But i m not sure if it s available in your country
Well, to start, I've been feeling very empty with everything I do. I've been attending therapy for almost 4 years now, and I can't see how I'm developing. I was just okay the year before, but now I can't think of something to be happy about. Sometimes, when I finish some work or a hangout with friends, I start to feel depressed as if it was only a temporary break from my never-ending depression.
For example, when I start to feel depressed, I try to do things that can keep my brain busy, but it's nowhere near working now. I started piano lessons, tried to read books and manga, and joined volleyball and other sports to maintain this feeling of "wanting to live," but I just feel boredom and emptiness. My life is busy also; as I was born with a delicate body, every month I have to go to the hospital for checkups, and currently, I am medicated for my body to keep working.