This was a rollerciaster

Too many times I gasped, I teared up, got angry, sad, confused, aghast. Tbh I just gave up on both of them. One is a sinner, the other was a selfish abuser. Like fuck I just said ok just die a miserable death both of you. You both deserve each other and then... Bam! They went back to the past and my god this got me good. I expected a back to the past plot but most of the story will only have a few chapters then they go back but this one almost had a whole ass season. I really honestly do not know how I survived reading those traumatizing chapters. I hate to say this but as much as I hate all the violence and abuse and all the turmoil of the past, now that there's a chance to erase all of that in this new lifetime, I feel a glimmer of hope that this is gonna be a good story. Oh my god! I want to read the novel at this point ╥﹏╥