Feelings about this chapter

Colorless January 11, 2017 2:50 am

Reading other people's responses to this chapter, I think I interpreted a few things differently regarding Woojin's crappy personality and the scene with Siwoon dying.

1. I think it's important to remember that the Woojin we have seen in the series so far is a reflection of his personality after the immense stress of the only person he's ever loved dying in front of him. Combine that with the fact that he knew something was 'off' about Taemin's death and he probably suffered through the trauma, and possibly denial, alone without any closure. I think it's reasonable to believe that the personality we've seen from Woojin so far is worse than he would normally be considering the circumstances. As for how cold and emotionless he is towards other people in general, please remember that he was absolutely betrayed and abused by his own parents as a child. While not an excuse for being cruel, it's understandable that he wouldn't want to grow attached to others out of fear and expectation of being betrayed again, especially since he is the heir of a wealthy company and people probably try to kiss his butt for money and status as well. By keeping people at a distance and refusing to care about them, he effectively protects himself from pain and exploit.

2. I think I read into the scene with Siwoon dying a bit differently than other people. I think it was a bittersweet moment for Siwoon. Of course the bitter part is that he died after a life of abuse and never was able to stand up for himself or feel loved by the people around him. I think what makes it a nice scene is that his last moments alive were of Woojin running towards him full of the love and despair that Woojin was feeling for Taemin, which we know is significant. However, I don't think Siwoon knew that he was in someone else's body at that moment. From Siwoon's perspective, it must have seemed that in his last moments alive somebody truly loved and cherished him, and I think that's why he was able to close his eyes "as if he had no regrets." After such a difficult life, those thoughts were probably enough to put him at peace.

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