It's basically called depression. From all the pain her family caused her, her thinking she doesn't have anyone to support her and worse is she thinks she does not deserve any support or love because that's what was ingrained to her brain. So she is rejecting everyone.
Yeah for real man, why tf did she ended up having sex with him, if she knew that she wont come nowhere with him and with her mind and her thoughts? Like there were so many moments when she needed him or where she legit wanted him and showed it fr openly and yet still blaim him. Fr hes the best thing in her life. If i were her id be blessed to have someone who would love me like this, to have someone who would travel entire whole world for a random girl like me. id be blessed. Fu*ck that family and accept ppl who cares and love her. I just wish idk that author would do it bit different ig, cuz i woudnt expect such atitude from an adult but fr an adult to act like this.
its still 10/10 tho
What we are reading is basically her depression developing. When she slept with ML, it was her attempt to break from the burden she has with her family but at the same time, blaming him because she wouldn't have been tempted to do so if he didn't enter her life.
Then things went shit and her mind spiraled down to her wanting to leave everything behind because no likes her and at the same time, she thinks she doesn't deserve to happy and drag ML to her filth. I think she knows he was the best thing that happened to her life but as she mentioned in previous chapters, she doesn't want to dirty or ruin ML's life.
makes sense yes. i have no come back haha. i wish this story woudnt be so complicaded with many drama moments, but i enjoy the art very much
I think the inner thoughts or the progression of FL's depression is not written well. Hence she just comes off as annoying. She doesn't also look depressing enough, if that makes any sense, so readers are left to interpret what's going through her mind. The plot, imo, is promising but the execution of the story and the characters is quite lacking.
true yes. Maybe in the future the writter will write a better option of a story like this.
Hope so. Also I just remembered, didn't the FL harm herself in one of the earlier chapters? There was even a tw at the start of the chapter. The writer didn't follow through. No scars or returning from that state. If they did, FL would be more understandable.
I don't know. I must read it again. I can't remember much of the story in detail. But if it's like you said. Then there is definitely something her brain (FL) that she's depressed, that would explain yes. Like you said
Honestly..I don't know what to think of her. Yes she wants to be a good obedient person and 3 sec later u see her cry. Like girl,it's your own fault. Just do whatever you want. And then she broke up the engagement and still being mad on the guy who fr loves her. He's a mess yes but let's be real did he ever hurt her like physical or humiliated her?he didn't. Why the hell is she saying it's his fault. Ngl I can't stand such attitude and then she's crying why she's living such life uffghhhh...