OHMYFCKINGGOD

I know this chapter is provided to give us a glimpse of what's going on with Oushi and to basically make us sympathize with him but jfc all it did is make me double down on my views on him, which aren't really good. It's all so self-absorbed. His way of showing his affection/crush is akin to a kid pulling a girl's hair and he never stopped being like this all the way to college. It's such a turn off. I'm actually contemplating if it's really love that he feels cuz his way of expressing it is so convoluted. Did he really think being mean, his constant infantilization of Yuki and acting like he knows better than the person who actually lives her life are things a person who likes a person will do? No. It's more like the things who secretly hates someone will do.

I would also like to point out that he's aware, he knows that "actions speaks louder than words", aren't just a simple saying for Yuki but a large part of her communication. And yet he continues to act in a way that make it seem like he doesn't like her that much. Ugh I really don't like him. And now he's purposely ignoring the fact that Yuki is in love, happy and living her life to the fullest for his goddamn feelings. As if Yuki wasn't already aware that he likes her, does he really need to double down and make it explicitly known? Once again, he knows this is gonna cause drama and unnecessary grief, and yet he's gonna do it anyway. Even in his own arc, he's doing the things that got him in this situation, making himself and his ego the priority, disregarding the person he apparently "loves". His character development was a circle, he's back exactly where he started, he's only aware he's been a jerk, but he's still a jerk lmao. He should have swallowed back his feelings, left Yuki alone, moved on and stayed as a friend instead of bullsht like this. He's got a chance next chapter, for the love of god please do better than this.