If you don't want to choose a green flag ml it's ok, but also there is no need to be wrapped by a red carpet.

Ml telling his sad story to justify his act . He clearly just obbesed with fl , he didn't think about her feelings. If fl goes back to him that shows she doesn't have any self respect. You can love someone but at the same time also can choose to stay away from them. Second lead is also good person but If she doesn't love him it's ok .She doesn't have to choose any one to live a life.