Responses
Looking at the last few lines and how Yohan compares himself to the people around him, it's beautiful because it's a reflection over his own journey. Even small enjoyable moments are worth it and for Yohan who has probably lived years avoiding any of those moments due to guilt and most likely fear, it's probably the first time he's actually faced his feelings and emotions head on.
It's cathartic to see Yohan finally cry and express himself in such a vulnerable way. He's been feeling like that for so long and the only time he cried was when he first met Jay. Some people have said this manhwa is too slow and boring because it doesn't focus on the romance enough. Personally, I think that's one of its strength. They fully give a lot of time and attention to Yohans mental state and his actual plans outside of romance. It doesn't feel like something extra they tacked on, it's intrinsic to the story and his recovery is tied to whether he accepts his own feelings towards Jay. I think they're romance on its own is compelling too though! I also love how they used acting to express who he is outwardly and internally. Jay being the one to modify the lines just shows a different level of empathy and understanding he has towards Yohan that hasn't been shown before. Definitely will be waiting for the next chapter!