continuation of this rambling but i totally understand where he comes from sometimes. you start to worry about your image so much that you push yourself further into gender 'norms', the same 'norms' that hurt so many others in the community.
i am afab but i am agender.
i worry that if i wear skirts, i will be misgendered. i worry that my interest in cute things like sanrio and sylvanian families etc. would get brushed off as me being 'a girl'. although i'm confident in my voice, sometimes i wonder if i should try harder to sound 'more masculine/androgynous' so that i would not be labelled as 'girl'.
but i'm a hypocrite if i let myself fail to wear or like things i like. for example, i feel like if i push away myself away from wearing skirts, i would be pushing away those who are in the same boat as me, masc presenting or male too.
but thats just one part my experience.
Oh I toooootally get you. Like I'm a masc enby and sometimes I fear that having fem clothing makes me look like a girl. I know that clothing does not equate to what gender you are, but it's so hard to accept that fact for myself y'know.
I also use clothes as a form of escape mechanism which is why I relate to this manga so so soooo bad.
I hope that we can be more comfortable in our own skin as time goes by :))))
its the way that i had to hold myself back from cheering and hollering when he showed up in the boy's uniform bc it was 4am - i felt so good for him.
DUDE!!! i use fashion as my escapism, i see it as both a positive and negative
sometimes i use it to hide away, to bandaid whatever i hated about myself that day but sometimes my clothes scream about how good i felt about myself and what i want them to portray me as.
i love it when people get it, i love it when people retort with it's just fabric. crazy how a piece of fabric can make or break someone's viewpoint.