:( please help can't find it no matter how hard I try ):

have y'all read this?

I can't remember if it's a manga, manhwa, or manhua but it's about an orphan uke who works in seme's home, typical rich family. seme is gay and one day fell in love with a person he met. uke had loved seme unrequitedly for many years before. seme didn't wanted his parent's to know that he was gay. one day seme got to know uke is gay when he forced uke to confess. uke really felt guilty because not only seme and uke were employer and employee but they were also close friends since childhood (the uke was working in the mansion since childhood and fell in love with seme because seme was the only one who talked to him as they were same age but other servants avoided uke cuz he was an unwanted orphan and the servants used to think uke will steal valuables and then run away from the mansion ). seme next day(day after uke confessed his love and that he's gay to seme) asks uke to date him, uke agrees happily.. turns out the seme's crush (friend) went abroad and the seme just wanted his crush to be jealous of his relationship with uke. the uke and seme go on dates, and soon seme's parents, friends and servants get to know that. all of them think uke forced and seduced seme into a relationship so they start making uke's, life hell. seme's friends often make fun of uke in front of seme and also say really mean things to uke when uke is alone. uke never utters a word to seme eventhough he was hurting badly inside. seme's parents feel disgusted with uke and call him out as a gold digger who' s after their money. and that they should've never allowed him to work in this, mansion. uke never utters a word to seme eventhough he was hurting badly inside. the mansion's servants start gossiping about uke and give him dirty looks for being a gold digger. some of them even start bullying uke more (he used to get bullied even before he started dating seme). 5 years pass and uke is more in love with seme but seme often mistreats uke for caring about seme and is always rude to him. whenever they have sex, it's really rough but uke is always badly hurt after sex but never says a thing to seme because he doesn't want seme to be sad or hold back. one day seme asks to break up and the uke is really shocked. he asks seme whatever is the reason for seme' s decision and before even hearing the reason he keeps on apologising. seme ignores uke and leaves the room. apparently seme's crush (first love) came back from abroad back to their country. it is then revealed that seme only dated uke because he was poor and orphan but his first love was rich and from a good background. since seme was gay, he knew his parents would have a hard time accepting any person he dates. so he wanted his parents to see that he's upgraded his boyfriend (from an orphan servant to a rich young master) so that his parents fully support him. do you know it?