Kinda against the author.-.

How dare they use rape as a plot.-. How dare they acknowledge that he had experienced and was deeply scarred and scared when 2 other people used and abused him, but just because the godawful author said SeoHa is the ML it's all forgiven and forgotten as rape and now sawn as an "act of love". That was rape. That is deeply disturbing and makes me fueled with hate. I think our dearest dumb MC is not written in a good way, yes there are crazy people who submit and get so used to the harassment and abuse they crack and snap, but our idiotic Yul is just beyond that: he acknowledges THE FUCKING FACT HE WAS CONSTANTLY RAPED and the person only admitted after a while and just so he himself felt better.-. I feel beyond disgusted, it's agonizing and makes me literally feel sick and repulsed. How can someone use such trauma to tell a story and not market it as it is : horror. It's not a love story, not is it a wholesome one, it's sick, twisted and it even says in its own dialogues, but ultimately nothing is done or actually taken serious over the fact that is a crime, inhuman and a violation in every sense to be dome by someone that claimes it was "love". No. That isn't "Love", that is sickness, that is mania, obsession and an illness of compulsive possessiveness. That is toxic, unhelpful, unhealthy, hurtful. Disgusting. I am not saying and making a statement of moral superiority; I have read worse, but at least it's honest, it isn't portrayed in such a misleading way and pretending that it's "good". Those aren't good reads my any means, not even well written, but they admit they fetishize about their horribleness or acknowledge and "do something" act accordingly to as it is: criminal, disgusting acts of violation and violence, a terrible and sickening, repulsive and unhealthy media. I know better now that whenever I am drawn to dark themes I am not in a good head space. And I do acknowledge that porn is harmful, specially when consumed compulsively or in too mich quantities. I acknowledge my not good feelings and interests, but I hate being untruthful and masking/making excuses/ perceiving and lying as if they are not what they are. This is what prompted me to write all this, go along, this is just a rant as someone who has been raped( different to the MC) and have had sexual harassment (similar to MC). Anyway: I liked the roomate and FWB; as I said, I am not morally better nor any less of a scum for having some twisted preferences, I just prefer to be upfront and try my best to deal with them in a non harmful way( talking about it in therapy and always seeking consent and understanding of what's happening if I ever have sexual or any other type of communication/relationship). So that poor second male lead is my type, kind of an asshole but caring at times and teaching/learning at a pace and understanding their partners, sometimes being selfish or harsh but also having a soft spot. I liked how even though I kinda would say he loves MC it's not a very romantic relationship, I'd say its more BDSM with all that belonging and not treating as a romantic partner/SO. But also still caring and supporting one another while maintaining a good close relationship. I may be an aromantic who loves love and romance but could never partake in it as it irks and have never ended well for me specifically... Wow, self discovery time. Anyways: have a nice day, and I don't hate/berate anyone who liked it or even the author, but it caused a lot of unsettlement to see they describing how much impactful and hurting his past experiences bdared such trauma and dismay but outta nowhere ignore all of it and become so disgustingly hypocrite and disconnect just because the MC and the author have a wrapped view on the MC and ML relationship. It's a very bad one imo, and if I were to speak how I'd try to make MC healthy and happy: no contact with any of his exes, the FWB only if they cut sex and stayed good frens who support each other, therapy, new fresh environment, maybe sum meds cause he seems mentally sick :( depression, anxiety and insomnia are the top 3 I could say as I have the 1st two sickness and the story itself acknowledges MC has insomnia ( that is to say: it's ignored and never treated.-.) also he has panic attacks whenever he has contact with ptsd related people/events/places or anything really (ML's brother and his stalker) he also seems to have anger issues and outbursts( he broke many phones and treats other's he isn't close rashly/bad/aggressivly and just coldly most of the time). Again, have a nice day and sorry for bothering