Responses
I think that you have to clearly see that see finds everything tiring and wants to stop as many future problems as possible as she sates sleeping together is one of them and I think that the only reason she is failing is that the death will only be considered if it is natural and it's hard to have a natural death when god does not want you to die so the relationships are mainly accidental as the relationship with ML is only so things aren't tiring and with the mage it's her scholar side as it was her longest and most memorable lifestyle so it's habit and with the girl she was just trying to die
She either has to stick to her plan to die to the T (which she is failing horribly at) or reconsider it bc she can’t be going around creating these relationship bonds and then dip bc that’s cruel. And I hope the decision won’t drag on for 50+ chapters bc that’ll be too late the relationships she’ll make by then will be too great.
Also Idky she’s so eager to fuck if she wanted to leave him and die… it makes no sense. I’d understand if she was horny but she clearly stated it was a “duty” she feels need to be done.