Im posting my comment here again

You can absolutely feel however you want about our viewing of a fanfiction. But like you said, no one can judge.

Look at it from the perspective of someone who WAS r*ped from a young age until her teens. What youre saying is, because I experienced the worst acts you could think of, I'm not allowed to enjoy consensual s*x with a partner of my choosing? Someone I've decided to give my love to that has been reciprocated? Because that's basically the perspective you and the person you're quoting have presented.

let me answer one of the things u stated first : i do not believe people who have been r*ped cannot enjoy consensual s*x , what happen to use was horrible .





i read it for myself so i can reply to you i went back to actually see the smut for myself . heres my reply .

maybe its just me but i dont read much dj let alone banna fish djs.
in this dj they disregarded the fact that ash and eji had a ace relationship . (no im not saying ash is ace ) in the starting of this dj it was very sensual in the way they displayed ash and the choice of words used . which is totally okay its fiction after all. but just jumping into smut like bam personally i find that to be somewhat "strange " another thing i noticed was ash was the "top " the author of banana fish stated he was a "bottom " to add to that eji was drunk . they had drunk s*x tho only ash was sober . having s*x with a drunk person i wonder whats the word for haveing s*x with a drunk person /partner .



ik i should keep in mind that this is a dj after all the author can change and do whatever they like seens its there dj , but the smut felt unnecessary. as if the author for this dj just wanted to see ash and eji had s*x . everything else before the smut had a good flow i really dont know where they pull the smut from .

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That sucks. It really does. People have different healing and recovery rates. If you never fully heal I'm sorry but I hope one day you do. That feeling of finally having someone you can give your whole world to is amazing and can change your perspective on literally everything in your life. Don't get me wrong. I've been through years of therapy and dr*g concoctions to even begin to feel okay with myself, yet alone making l*life attempts. But I hope you get to possibly experience that almost 180 turn of how you approach the worst possible things that have happened to us.

And again, it's a fanfic. Instead of being upset over it you totally never have to read it again

ur right i really dont have to bat an eye to this .



but like u said u went through therapy and stuff . they just made ash to be okay with everything . im not upset just rather shocked , at the end of the day its fiction ig

I also said peoples healing rates are different so maybe the author in this work of fiction made it okay for him. Or maybe the fact that he and eiji went this far is supposed to be the story itself. Who knows.

Yeah, just don't read it again, I think that's for the best. It's not going to change and it's fiction so it's probably best to steer clear.

agreed

The author said their relationship would eventually become sexual if Ash lived

i have no issue with there relationship being sexual. just did not like how this manga did it tbh. it was like i said: " sudden " / this story did not need the smut. i felt like they just dropped the smut in .

Ah ok. I can understand that, if the author's goal was to develop intimacy between the two, they could have done that without sex.

yup XD