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I don't really remember the chapter but when Karel went to the military, sasya thinks he was abandoned and had hallucinations about Krael and The other blond guy talking about him which obviously is not true but he thinks that and about the owning thing that is how he felt when Sasya was about to leave with the Russian Aristocrats Wife.
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The trauma from actually killing someone with his own hands made Sasya forget what happened. I can’t remember in which chapter it was and this time im not gonna be going back to check, you can recheck if you wish tho. But yeah, in that chapter it showed that he actually forgot what he did, right before Karel went to prison. So to Sasya, Karel (taking the blame) “murdering” someone must’ve been to finally get away from him—hence the thought that Karel abandoned him. It can we wild to readers, but Sasya from the beginning of the story has been a deeply mentally unstable person so it’s not really all that wild that he thinks like that considering his state of mind.
Okay, so I understand Sasya has made some wrong choices but what else do you expect him to do huh?? He is not mentally stable and Krael knows that. Krael's love is obsessive and he wants to Own Sasya in a way. And Sasya also loves Krael in a way. I am not claiming that Sasya is a saint. Sasya isn't perfect okay? He had people in past take advantage of him. He does not know that people can be kind or people can love someone without asking for anything in return. Sasya also has abandonment issues and he thinks Krael has abandoned him. He needs to learn how to love someone and get rid of issues but Krael's absence and his addictions have worsened his condition. Okay? He needs someone patient who will understand him. And if Krael can't do that then he can't—he doesn't love Sasya. He is in love with an idea of Sasya in his head but in real life, Sasya is Far from it. He has issues that need to be tended to. I do see hope for Sasya, he can recover from his trauma but that needs love and Patience and a whole lot of therapy. Sasya isn't a doll, he is a person with issues and if you don't understand that, then you don't deserve to love him Krael.