Fr I agree
Its because the author intentionally uses psychology to sympathise and humanise his character despite how horrendous he is. Its a common tactic but the author consistently tries to rationalise his actions and thoughts in a way that seems plausible to readers.
I think this is why this story gives such sadness. Like I don't want to somewhat enjoy it because it's super fucked up what's happening to Euihyun. He's scared, he's trapped, he's alone and all he had is his humanized (likable to readers) abuser. Us readers don't want Euihyun to feel lonely etc but know how shitty situation he is in.
Maybe for now, he can keep his most likely unborn child and have companion ship with them, then get mentally and emotionally stable and move on.
Maybe he can go to his kind neighbor!
Ha! As if Taeju would ever allow that. That's sad also. He's very jealous.
Yes that’s exactly why I said I’ve sinned because I typically don’t support toxic leads like this ╥﹏╥ Like why am I not supporting the clearly friendly neighbor…
Guys I’m so sorry, I’m such a sucker for character development. Like I wish more BLs was like this instead of the, shit I fucked up so imma force myself on them and see what happens. Like I’ve seen character development, but this one hits a lot more? I mean, he isn’t doing a lot different than other toxic ML character development, but his character is just so likable? Like I don’t think he’s hot so I’ll root for him, I just feel some sort of way with how the characters are portrayed and developed. Idk if anyone agrees with me and has a more logical explanation, I would love to hear it.