Idk man

It's sad to believe j never trully did love makoto. Or maybe he did.. just not the standard definition of the love we know.

He sees makoto as his potential savior that will break his shackles. And he enjoyed every bit of the step of makotos growth.. just.

A very beautiful twisted story.

Their relationship is what I feel about the entire book after it ended.. feels empty and seeking for traces as. Whats next after it ended? As makoto finds a bit of j traces on f..

Idk man. This book will def etched in me..

The years of waiting is worth but still feeling lost without waiting for it anymore.. agh