Mum is the only good character in this whole book. Everyone likes cain but he’s manipulative and he’s secretive. He will do everything for you and eventually you’ll get so fed up of not knowing the man you’re in a relationship with that you’ll break up with him for not being in this relationship with you in an emotional and mental sense. Yahwi is trying bless him but he’s not gonna be able to fix the bridges he burned. He needs therapy and he needs to heal. He can’t be with anyone right now. Anyone and anything can trigger him and make him go back to being an AH and that’s not good for anyone. I do like him for being the only character that’s acknowledged everything they’ve done wrong and tried to change. Cain and jooin won’t acknowledge any of their wrong doing to other people and don’t try to change to better themselves AT ALL. That being said, I still want yahwi single for the time being. He needs healing not romance. Jooin is a mess. He’s sloppy and he’s not thinking about anyone but himself. Yes you’re the main character of your own story but that doesn’t mean other people have to view you as such. That’s such an entitled way of thinking. He takes comfort in these two men and uses them but never commits to either one. He plays them against each other for no reason other than neither of them being EXACTLY what he wants. He refuses to even suggest that both of them are what he wants and that maybe trying a poly or open relationship might be a good way forward. He refuses to ignore anyone’s affections outright by just leaving their lives completely and cutting the cord. He just expects that they stay but at the same time wants both of them to leave their bad parts and their ugly parts at the front door. It doesn’t work like that. If you want someone to know you, you need to OFFER information and not just wait for it. He’s pulling a burr here and he will thoroughly regret it. Right now, he wants everything and anything that could be good for him but he’s not doing anything to get them and to hold them close to his heart. Relationships are hard work both ways. He expects both of them to work hard but not himself. He revels in yahwis obsession and remorse and his devastation from his past because it means jooin isn’t the only messed up person around and he seeks comfort in subservient yet secretive cain because he doesn’t actually care about cains life or hobbies, he wants cain as cain wants to be presented: as an obedient and comforting dog. Honestly, I hate the whole book but it’s like I’m watching a trainwreck and can’t look away. I want to say I’m done with this book but I need to know if jooin ever gets his head out his ass and starts actually behaving like a normal person and not an entitled spoiled brat. As always, I’m hoping cain and yahwi seek therapy and are able to work through their issues and start healing and putting themselves first in a healthy way. Jooin needs more than just therapy right now so I’ll hold off on wishing anything for him.
Mum is the only good character in this whole book. Everyone likes cain but he’s manipulative and he’s secretive. He will do everything for you and eventually you’ll get so fed up of not knowing the man you’re in a relationship with that you’ll break up with him for not being in this relationship with you in an emotional and mental sense. Yahwi is trying bless him but he’s not gonna be able to fix the bridges he burned. He needs therapy and he needs to heal. He can’t be with anyone right now. Anyone and anything can trigger him and make him go back to being an AH and that’s not good for anyone. I do like him for being the only character that’s acknowledged everything they’ve done wrong and tried to change. Cain and jooin won’t acknowledge any of their wrong doing to other people and don’t try to change to better themselves AT ALL. That being said, I still want yahwi single for the time being. He needs healing not romance. Jooin is a mess. He’s sloppy and he’s not thinking about anyone but himself. Yes you’re the main character of your own story but that doesn’t mean other people have to view you as such. That’s such an entitled way of thinking. He takes comfort in these two men and uses them but never commits to either one. He plays them against each other for no reason other than neither of them being EXACTLY what he wants. He refuses to even suggest that both of them are what he wants and that maybe trying a poly or open relationship might be a good way forward. He refuses to ignore anyone’s affections outright by just leaving their lives completely and cutting the cord. He just expects that they stay but at the same time wants both of them to leave their bad parts and their ugly parts at the front door. It doesn’t work like that. If you want someone to know you, you need to OFFER information and not just wait for it. He’s pulling a burr here and he will thoroughly regret it. Right now, he wants everything and anything that could be good for him but he’s not doing anything to get them and to hold them close to his heart. Relationships are hard work both ways. He expects both of them to work hard but not himself. He revels in yahwis obsession and remorse and his devastation from his past because it means jooin isn’t the only messed up person around and he seeks comfort in subservient yet secretive cain because he doesn’t actually care about cains life or hobbies, he wants cain as cain wants to be presented: as an obedient and comforting dog. Honestly, I hate the whole book but it’s like I’m watching a trainwreck and can’t look away. I want to say I’m done with this book but I need to know if jooin ever gets his head out his ass and starts actually behaving like a normal person and not an entitled spoiled brat. As always, I’m hoping cain and yahwi seek therapy and are able to work through their issues and start healing and putting themselves first in a healthy way. Jooin needs more than just therapy right now so I’ll hold off on wishing anything for him.