Whoa nothing good ever comes from being so down on yourself. Please know you are beautiful as is and have some more self confidence.
At least you tried. me I don't have the confidence. And... everything looks better in 2D.
Beside what you said reminds me of a graphic novel (manga, but I think its American) and this manga character comes to the 'real' world through some scientists circular machine. he doesn't bleed blood, but black ink and when he 'likes' the MC girl in the 'real' world he has hearts for eyes and comic effect stuff that happens and what's cool is he and the MC 'bend' the rules and get out of the box, literally, still on the page though and there are tentacles after them (tentacle monster is from 'his' world)
anyway since 'he' is different from 'normal' people in the 'real' world people look at him differently (disgust, hate, etc.) except the MC who accepts him and finds him different and interesting so she falls for much to the dismay of other and*Spoiler* since I'm sure I won't read this again ...*tear* I have to say the ending was awesome, don't know if it's continued or not so I'll spoil it and say, he returns to his world....... and she chases after him (through the portal thingy, but o.o shock! he never went back he was on his way to! and her friend that helped her enter tells the Manga guy and the scientist, but the tentacle thing was coming through and somehow the portal was destroyed WITH MC still in the portal. So with the portal collapsed she died with it...>< Or did she!!! she comes out as a Manga character herself, just like him!!!!! I was soo happy!
Anyway, back on track ^^' (sorry) you're like the manga character in real life! Remember even though Hollywood and book (manga, comic, etc.) show paradise, there will always be bugs in paradise, nobody is perfect.... (why do you think the fuzz 'bug' celebrities, they want to pin point there flaws and expose them [for money] and it makes the general public feel closer to these stars.
Be confident, you are great, a much better person than me. you stood your ground.
And P.S. if anyone ...and I MEAN ANYONE knows the name of the graphic novel I described PLEASE m(_ _)m Please!, let me know! Σ(っ°Д °;)っ i really want to read and own it! (read it at my school library T~T who knew I'd want to go back?!?
Thank you minna, i felt pretty down about this issue and knew i'd get different pov's from the wonderful ppl here. Well it s acne but i have it very worse thru my teens to my 20's now, and it sucks i felt i was back in high school where all this mattered. Mostly ppl do not care so i was shocked to see so much attention on it that i became almost a shut-in for a day there #-.-)
Teehee ^^ the manga sounds really cool, if i sound like the protaganist i wish someone jumped thru loops for me too (≧∀≦). You're right everythng is so much better in 2D ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶ .. well i did handle the stares better towards the end as i didn't want to further ruin my trip i worked hard to save up for ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭ i was just disillusioned
well i don't know if they'd have haha, but it was obvious what they were looking at, i even saw some girls react to my appearance so i can't see it from a non-negative angle i guess.. i just didn't think even Japan was harsh, i heard of Korea, being that way but expected Tokyo with all its crazy stuff to be more tolerant/accepting..
*hugs* Thank you :) you're a sweet person for cheering me on! Going there kinda taught me to be more serious about my skin since everyone else showed more care than i have to myself. I just had a little wake up call i suppose ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭
Yes i will, thank you. It took my a while to get over the shock and stares, i mean not over it but to be ore accepting of my appearance i suppose, i haven't been subject to that harshness since high school ┗( T﹏T )┛
YESSS, gosh i don't know which 2D i will choose to enter if i can (≧∀≦) i love a lot of them, i will have my own personality and i wonder if the other guys will really fall for me given i'm gonna be different from original MC. Thru japan i was like hoping i run into something unique , a crazy anime like situation? (≧∀≦) ah my shoujo dreams.. ┗( T﹏T )┛.. oh well i did buy some good manga there although its in japanese and i cant quite understand , one life goal complete (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
So i went to japan recently and got stared at a lot in Tokyo.. i have a hell lot of acne/scars etc and my trip ended up making me so self conscious now #-.-) I knew Asia has very high beauty standards, but I was pointed at etc by kids and adults just stare at my face. At first i thought maybe its cuz I'm a mixed brown skin and they're asian, then i realized it's my face in general... i just got all my shoujo style dreams kicked out of me :( but japanese men are so cute (≧∀≦) too bad i'm too ugly for men/women alike there ╥﹏╥