sobbing, sweating, throwing up

there were so many parts where i felt sick because of nerves, how hard i was crying, how bad my thoughts were, but every physical emotion i somehow conjured from my emotional one, were worth it. i was getting closer to the end and was terrified the suffering was going to continue, but im so happy that there was a happy ending. all the characters felt so fleshed out, and as much as i hated some characters, i couldn't help but feel some sympathy. this terrible yohan made up for all the amazing, compassionate, gentle yohans in other bls.