And other thing I forgot to mention. I'm part of BDSM and related kinks community for 12 years now. This is not even far from BDSM. This is pure rape - and not the kinky one! If you are willing to enter a BDSM relation, it must be with someone(s) that will respect you and stop when you tell them to. Please be aware for freaks and psycopaths in the communitiy, unfortunatelly there are many. Practice safe sex with people you know you can trust. Don't rush things, do it all on your time. Be safe from predators.
Thank you for writing this also, just as the translator. There are definitely impressionable minds reading this and they could definitely take it the wrong way, easily!!! It’s important they know this isn’t consensual, pleasant and not safe!!
You were amazing puting all your notes. They are definetly needed because there are people reding this... thing and living a similar situation which they can't get out.
I DON'T SUPPORT THE AUTHOR ROMANTICIZING RAPE. However I see it's important to make stories on this matter showing how fucked up a relation can become, it can help other to have the courage to get out.
IF YOU ARE LIVING A SITUATION LIKE THAT, PLEASE SEEK HELP. THE ABUSER WILL NEVER CHANGE. SAVE YOUR LIFE. TELL SOMEBODY YOU TRUST. CALL LIFE SUPPORTING LINES. DON'T GIVE UP, LIFE IS WORTH LIVING.
All my love and support for you, wherever you are!