Can someone explain this idk why i feel this way

I dont really like Jaeshin but somehow...i find him way more tolerable than Jaekyung??? Whats wrong with me? I dont really get it because Jaeshin raped Nok a million times but i still think his character is more 'redeemable'...maybe my standards have turned to mush. Is this pretty privilege kicking in..i feel guilty lol