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Well, two danmei novels made me cry heaps:
Online Dating Boyfriend Is Actually An Alien (because of long separations and terminal illness, which made me miss my recently passed away brother *ugly sobs*) https://www.novelupdates.com/series/online-dating-boyfriend-is-actually-an-alien/ it's not completely translated so I used MTL with the raws
Transmigrated as the Cannon Fodder Abandoned by the Movie Star
https://www.novelupdates.com/series/transmigrated-as-the-cannon-fodder-abandoned-by-the-movie-star/
which is a triggering danmei about someone with suicidal ideation and a very realistic depiction of mental illness, you want to either stab the scum ML or send some knives to the sadistic author
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And if you read Western BL, the two most tragic and tear-jerking emo reads I can think of atm are:
The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller - retelling of Greek tragedy that rips your heart into smithereens, death of major character https://www.pdfdrive.com/the-song-of-achilles-a-novel-e196985601.html
The Persian Boy by Mary Renault - historical romance about Alexander the Great and his Persian catamite which really kicks you in the gut since ML has two wives and death of major character https://www.pdfdrive.com/the-persian-boy-e198162574.html
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aww sorry I got carried away with my novel recs! but some tragic emo BL manga/webtoons are:
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/saha_lee_uin/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/hana_no_miyako_de/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/banana_fish/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/lonely_to_organdy/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/zankoku_na_kami_ga_shihai_suru/ (this one has abuse)
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/no_6/ (has anime adaptation)
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https://www.mangago.zone/home/mangalist/290491/ This is a good unrequited love list XD. He always makes quality BL lists! But he doesn't read tragedy.
I mean i did read the 10 years where i love u the most but they didn't hit me hard and december rain too they didn't do much. So i really need to find something that can bawled my eyes! So GIVE ME YOUR SADDEST SHIT!