Mo Ran has 3 stages in this story: Hateful mongrel Stupid dog Dumb Puppy. I keep chec...

Reading the novel is better or reading manhwa then the novel?

I read the novel first. Manhwa is a bit disappointing because they censure a .lot of the spicy scenes. Also, Chu Wanning's descriptions are much more intimidating in the novel so you feel the distance between him and Mo Ran much more keenly than in the manhwa and understand exactly what kind of figure Chu Wanning was in the eyes of young Mo Ran. In the manhwa, Chu Wannings prescience is much more toned down, because they show him with many different expressions and even in chibi version. The last thing, the novel is told from Mo Ran's point of view, much more closely than it happens in the manhwa, and Mo Ran is a supremely unreliable narrator, so his emotional reactions are very childish and visceral most of the time, and there's a point where I really hated him for being so f*cking stupid and cruel. The novel is raw, and even after a couple of years, I don't re read most of the first part (the one we are going through right now), because as I said, novel Mo Ran abuses Chu Wanning horribly and there are many times in which I honestly don't want them to end up together. The only reason I like this novel is because the author was very aware of the fact that Mo Ran was hateful and makes him suffer just as badly for what he did to Chu Wanning, so I enjoyed immensely watching him grovel and beg for forgiveness and pledge his entire life to his shizun, even if he never loved him back.

Sorry sounds like a lot of spoilers but pls tell me WHY CAN'T I SEE THE NOVEL'S TRANSLATION HOW IS IT NOT COMPLETED -----

Honestly not normally one to enjoy stuff with the content you've explain but if you're honest about the fact the author is very aware of the ML's actions and makes him repent, I may actually give it a read.

I'm not good with spoilers so read at your own risk

SPOILER---
I love a good groveling I must say, and seeing him regret everything he ever did, not only to Shizun but to his uncle and aunt and to Xue Meng as well is very satisfying. Mo Ran's character journey is very much once of repentance and self-punishment, and what I liked particularly is that a lot of trashy characters who come to regret their actions or how they treated their partner, apologize a lot to said partner and try all sorts of redeeming actions, but its usually with the sole objective of winning that partner back after they f*ckd up. Mo Ran is not like that, when he comes to regret his actions and decides to change he does it from a 100% genuine place, because he realizes he let down the people who believed in him (Chu Wanning and his family) and feels like garbage for it. He spends the entire first half of the novel acting like the biggest victim, and oh woe is me, play me the smallest violin on earth, and feeling justified on every action he took in the past. And then when he realizes he was the actual bad guy all along, the actual victimizer he breaks down and its beautiful to see, because he lets go of every single excuse at once. He realizes, oh shit I created my own hell. And when he decides to fix it he goes all out, on everybody, not just with the objective of regaining his partners affection like in other romance stories. He's a better brother to Xue Meng, to the point they become inseparable. He turns into a better friend, a better nephew, a better everything. He fights to become the person Shizun always wanted him to be, just because he doesn't want to let him down again, not because he's expecting anything. Even while having 0 expectation of ever entering a relationship with Chu Wanning that went beyond Master and Student. Even with his past and all the spicy memories, he was 100% committed to being whatever Shizun wanted him to be and be 100% platonic for the rest of his life. He changed because he knew it was the right thing to do, not because it was the way to get his partner back.

Nah I'm glad they censored it, at least you won’t have to look at abuse and rape but I guess you have no problem with that

Ah sorry I didn’t read through your whole comment before commenting before since I thought you were one of the people who justify what MC did. IMO MC didn’t suffer enough, he should have been put through exactly what he did to ML and the died by being burned alive. My hate for that motherfucker runs so deep.